4 Years ago I never thought or anticipated this day.  When my daughter was born at 27 weeks premature I didn’t think of the joys of what life will bring her or her firsts of anything.  We focused on the moment and were thankful she was alive.  We spent 3 long months in the hospital with her as she met certain milestones.  Milestones were what kept us looking forward in a positive direction.  Whenever she met a milestone it was a celebration!!

Last year Lilly qualified for an Early Education Program since she was significantly delayed in 2 areas of her growth development.   So we got her enrolled in the program and WOW has she come so far.  Every day I drove her and picked her up. I struggled with letting her go in to another person’s care without my supervision.   Oh, BUT did I cry her first day when I dropped her off!!!   Like a baby as soon as I got in my car. 

So now we are in are 2^nd year of this program.  Lilly is aware of everything and speaking clearly of her wants and needs.  So this year dropping her off at school she was sad that she was not able to ride the bus to or from home with her friends.  She begged me to take the bus and her dad just didn’t get why I wasn’t letting go on something she wanted so badly.  Well between Lilly, her dad, and the teacher I broke.  Another milestone has come……I'll let her ride the bus.  Today almost was as bad as her first day of school last year. 

With Lilly you have to prep her with any changes even if she asks for it in advance.  So this morning getting ready I prepped her for the bus!  Now that I gave in and let her take the bus she didn’t want to.  No turning back now…..bus driver is on her way. 

She said no pictures and was a little overwhelmed with the decision she had made, but I had to sneak a few in.  

She walked to the end of the driveway and for a few moments was a little excited the bus was actually coming to pick her up!

Since the bus was 20 mins late it didn’t help with the anticipation of what to really expect and she got more nervous and decided to play in the gravel.  Mean mom me only wanted to capture another mile stone as she kept her back to me…haha. 

Well the bus finally showed up.  Camera down and comfort Lilly.  As I helped her on the bus she begged me to stay and ride the bus.  My eyes swelled up and I tried not to show her my scared emotions.  Gave her a kiss and hug and off the bus I go and off in the bus went my little girl. 

Another milestone….many more to come along with many more tears.  I love you my Lilly.